I went from working full time 40+ hours a week to staying home and my husband working full time. Now I see him when he’s home, he’s tired, I’m tired and the kids are on the go or want nothing but all the attention. But despite the tiredness, the sleepless nights, and the less time with my husband; I’m so amazingly blessed. I have a wonderful loving husband and two amazingly beautiful children. Even when I wake up in the morning barely able to keep my eyes open while I make a cup of coffee and breakfast for the two year old, he’ll ask “mommy hold you?”. Of course. Always. Then of course we eat the next thing he wants is to get cozy on the couch, which for him is grabbing a blanket going to the couch, throwing on a cartoon and cuddling with mommy. My heart melts every time. I’m lucky enough that the 4 month old sleeps long enough for me to get that time with him.
I watch him grow and learn everyday of which, I hadn’t gotten the chance to do. So now being here for both her and him is the most amazing thing. I’m so grateful my husband was in agreement when I said I wanted to do this. I mean what could be more rewarding than being able to watch your kids grow up and you don’t have to miss it. With that being said we’ve really thought about what we have our kids around too and what we have in our home. My son mostly when he starts having melt downs he’ll go grab his ‘green one’ which is just a stress away oil roll on and he loves smelling it and calms down. I never thought he’d ask for oils but he does. Since we live with my husbands parents, they have a dog and boy does he love her, sometimes a little to much.
My daughter, she’s such a happy baby. She always kicks and plays with her little gym on the floor, she loves looking at herself in the mirror. Rilynn laughs and smiles way more than Jackson ever did, he was so serious all the time. I can’t wait to see what her personality is and see the things she’ll ask for. But, because of my husband and my business I now get chance to see them grow up and I’m so very blessed to do so.
When you have kids they don’t tell you how exhausting it is. Lies, they do just not to the extent it really is. I give huge props out there to all you single moms and dads doing it by yourself. I don’t know how you do. I mean when you have kids you know there aren’t anymore days of sleeping in or really late nights going out, because you know your kid is going to be up at 6-7 in the morning. I love my baby boy but I swear I get like 12 hours of sleep in a week sometimes. With all the lack of sleep though they don’t tell you how rewarding it is. Even though you’re getting up at 6 or 7 in the morning, you’re waking up to this little person who is beyond excited to see you everyday. They want you there so you two can play and eat together. They want to try and do everything you do. They love you unconditionally. They want you around all the time, if not to cuddle with then at least to be in eye sight. I love my baby boy and when I’m getting up at 2 am to feed him, I smile because even though me and him are both tired he still smiles at me. So yes being a parent single or not can be exhausting but the rewards are well worth every last bit of it.
So I love my job. I love babies, but I can’t seem to get over my baby fever. You would think that working with babies and having an eight month almost nine month old I’d stop having it. Nope, I honestly think it makes it worse. I just want all the babies. I would probably have like 10 kids if I could. I want 3-4 kids minimum. We get so many small and chunky babies I go insane. They are so freaking cute, I just don’t know what to do. Maybe once I have more kids but even then I don’t know. I just love the fact that I get to bring a little life into this world and then take care of it. I don’t really want my baby fever to go away though either. I love the feeling of wanting more kids. My husband gets baby fever too, not as often as I do though. Which I love because you never hear of guys getting baby fever. So the fact that I married someone who wants kids just as bad as I do is just awesome, were both on the same page for the family life. We both love kids. He also wants just as many if not more than I do, which I love. When first started talking about kids he wanted like 12, his favorite movie was Cheaper by the Dozen. Kids are fun and honestly they teach you just as much as you teach them. I love watching them grow and learn. I love seeing how they react to new things. I love to see how much love they have for the people around them that we don’t because we grew up and know what the real world is like. I love how innocent they can be and how much they love to just explore. Babies and kids are the best, at least to me. I have baby fever bad and working in a postpartum ward makes the struggle real. 🙂
I like to write, sing, and spend time with my family. I’ve always wanted to write something fiction but I don’t think that’s for me. I never get very far. I do love my job for the most part though. Every job has it ups and downs, but I work with babies and moms. I’m a medic in the Air Force. I love working with the babies. Nothing makes me happier then seeing the little smiles and brand new faces of the newborns. They may not be very talkative but they are the cutest things. Best to cuddle with too. The moms, I love working with the moms too. I love being able to be apart of such a new beginning for them, such an important part of their life too. I love being able to help teach them new things they either forget or have never done. I got super lucky to get the job I did. In the Air Force as a medic you can be put anywhere in the hospital. Now, before I got in my main goal has always been babies and/or pediatrics. I got put right where all of it starts, newborn babies, and I love it. You could be having a bad day and just looking at the new faces will put a smile on your face. I feel like you should always like your job. there’s no point in going to a place you don’t enjoy. I love the people I work with as well. In the military so often people come and go, you meet so many people who wind up becoming some pretty good friends. The people I work with make the job even more fun/better than it already is.